Sleep–Why Can’t We Lay Down and Be Friends?

An owl flies over me in the dark night, hooting, so close that it almost sounds the same as a coyote’s howl. Lighting lights up the eastern sky, and the grumpy dog next door inevitably begins to bark for the next two hours straight.

“How much does it cost to ship a dog to Argentina?” my dad often asks.

Inside, I drink herbal orange tea and quiver restlessly. My sleep schedule has been muddled for I can’t remember how long, and the time I fall asleep and wake up keeps creeping back later and later. This week I keep accidentally sleeping until noon. At least I sleep. I remember my last semester of college–a horrible and much too recent time–when I never slept, ever. There were many, many circumstances contributing to this, and I look back and wonder how I did it. In the evenings when I was tired, I would go to bed and lay there. Often I would listen to music, watching headlights in the parking lot through a crack in the mini-blinds, and think about life. At 5 am, I would get up and go to the dorm lobby to do homework. I was taking a British novels class, which involved reading a novel every week, and often those novels were devoured in the wee hours of the morning until I got hungry for real food. I would work the rest of the day, and repeat the ritual.

I probably shouldn’t be alive.

My old friend Sleep is finally starting to come back around again. One of my favorite musicians, Garrett Viggers, wrote a song about it. I was at this concert, and thoroughly enjoyed his musings.